What is love?
I can't feel anything. Except hate.
I write songs, songs that sound nice, with DEEP words, except they mean nothing to me.
I have inspiration but they are empty. There's no connection.
I've been hurt too many times that I feel nothing,
it's sadistic to want to feel hurt anyway.
I am independent and does not need anyone except God in my life. Friends are welcome but not necessary, you know.

寒蝉之音，心的呐喊，凄切交响乐

我愿夜晚，不至长亭，却被拒绝

风雨之后，微弱暮光，初照你容颜

千杯不醉，麻痹不了，对你的眷恋。

我只想和你留恋于此处，

为什么船夫催，我留不住

握紧你的手，却发现双眼朦胧

千言万语，难以沟通

一想到离别路途遥远，江上一望无际的烟雾

灰色胧障阻挡我看不到的未来。

多情自古最伤的离别，莫非这感觉。

这冷落凄切的秋天，这心碎我受不了。

当今昔的痴醉蒸发了，我又会在哪睡

又是孤单月光照着被冷风吹倒的杨柳。

没有你的岁月还在流，多美好我不管

喜怒哀乐欲语不言，缺知己来倾谈。

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Isn't it ironic?

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I rushed to FC straight away after PUS.
Then I met my group and it's FUN.
Shin Juih--she's Korean, and PRETTY!! From ACJC and TKGS. We're best friends (:
Jeslynn from PJ. She's funny, loud and likes Zhi Hao!
Wen Hui from CCHMS. She looks pretty and a couple with Mingwei (shoe shine!) She looks a lot like junyi.
Sherly from TPJC. She looks a lot like Kathryn, but she's nicer.
Jasin from SKSS. She's sporty and tomboyish.
ZhiHao from HCI. He's (according to Jeslynn) different from the rest, smart, nice, handsome, tall!!
Mingwei from ACS(B) looks kind of korean. When he doesn't smile he looks gangster. When he does--so cute (in a childlike way!!). He's also gay (he's got a toy--he's really short classmate) and likes to hug each other, sit on each other's laps and kick each other's butts.
Kwang Yong from TPJC. Sherly's classmate. He's shy and quiet.
Yi Kang from RJ. Typical snob.
Si Yang from RJ and CHS. He looks a beng like/china scholar like. Arrogant and think he's handsome, want to be leader yet irresponsible.
Wayne from ACS(B) looks like a bear.
Richmond from ACS(B) mostly remains MIA.
Sasha from YJ, our facilitator. She's adopted from Africa, a punk, and retained. Can be weird sometimes.
We did lots of disgusting and tiring activities, made worse by our hunger. It was fun but REALLY DISORGANISED. WE HAD TO QUENE FOR 1 HOUR TO SHOWER! OR TAKE OUR BAGS.
but the stupidest thing is that our dinner, CRYSTAL JADE, was actually...
SOME SHITTY RICE AND (A BIT OF) PORK!! I BET IT'S JUST NORMAL HAWKER CENTRE FOOD IN CRYSTAL JADE PLASTIC BAGS! F OFF, THAT'S WHY I WENT TO AJIMAN RAMEN AFTER THAT.
I did learn the importance of donating money to people in poor countries, appreciate my life, about aids and made lots of friends AND GAINED 30 CIP HOURS.
Pichit from Thailand~
I just realised that *lvin commented abt me on facebook, uh he sounds damn weak man.
A tap became a "puch"?
and by enemies I just meant *lvin.
I somehow put B*** there--sorry, youre not my enemy, er, yet?
should have put "acquaintances" siah.

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Wow, I just got back from pre u sem.
Contrary to my expectations, it was fun and boring. I met lots of awesome people!!
First day, I arrived earliest and went to my dorm. My room was small, stinky and we have to share toilets :( There's like 4 cubicles but due to hauntings, we only dared to use the first 2. And 4 shower rooms.
There is a communal kitchen. There I met Nabilah from MI, Sonja from ACJC, Atiqah from TPJC and Rajveen from JJ. We talked and chatted.
Later, we met everyone. I had forgotten some of them, haha. There is:
Sonja is our AL, she's very responsible.
Atiqah is really TALL and skinny, she can be a model!
Nabilah is PRETTY, and looks like Eurasian.
Rajveen knows Cassandra Teo. She's tall and skinny too.
Marian from VJ. She looks really like Vanessa Wong. She's cute, with braces and dimples.
Hang yin from DHS. She knows Siting, Zuo Yue, Lingxuan and Mingyuan. We became best friends in pre u sem (: Though she's anorexic, haha.
Kejia from RJ. She's smart (duh) and skinny. She have a really good voice and she's from China! Haha she's also the wildest, chatting about guys and stuff.
Claudia from NJ. Prettiest and also most...bimbotic I guess.
Evelyn from NYJC.
Kimberley from YJ. She looks a lot like Mrs Yan's daughter, and she's cute and always smiles and very friendly (:
Amirah from IJ. She's good with IT and conservative (like me).
Ying Shan from YJ. Our SLO and she has a really cute voice. She looks like a couple with Darren but he's taken (ow). She's a prettier version of Evelyn.

Now for the guys... order from handsome to uh, the other scale.
Xian jin from NP. He was my senior in FMPS!! He didn't really give me a good impression because he got this cold and arrogant look, but he's ok lah. Quiet and "cute" as some people say. Evelyn and Claudia likes him maybe.
Leon from ACSI. Typical rich guy and leader. Not as handsome as David Tai (Merissa <3 him!) but the money and brains will make up for it. Sonja+Leon=AC!!
Johnson from NYP. As first I'm a bit wary of him as he looked like a gangster, but he's sensible and nice. Although he likes to say wtf a lot. And he got brown hair!! Claudia also flirted with him a lot.
Ace from SRJC. Because he's tall, he also acts very gentlemanly.
Kun Yun from PJ. He's very quiet but Hang yin and him shared a quiet moment together playing imaginary volleyball, ooh~
Sheng han from MJ. Because he's a Chinese, he is not ranked last :P. He looks...funny, but he's very friendly and always crap around with Johnson. Although he flirts with many girls (Kejia, Evelyn, Hangyin), but he likes someone else.
Aravind from SAJC. Well we didn't really talk much.
Darren from YJ, our SLO. He looks like Ou Yang Ke (Typical playboy) but he's quite nice to offer us sweets.

We had 6 meals a day. Breakfast was yuck with only bread/porridge/nasi lemak.
Morning tea was nice with sandwiches/catering including mexican chicken fajita!! I had to take 3 of them.
Lunch was lame, with muesli bars, but when there's catering it's bearable.
Hi Tea was nice as well.
Dinner was not nice, it's just hawker centre food. The Cafe sandwich was nice, like subway.
Supper was just soft drink and bread.
Well, I felt a bit cheated especially with the lousy food and living quarters, but it's slack. We had a lot of team building activities, crapped a lot, and mostly lounge around or fall asleep in seminars.
There were reportings of hauntings in block 25. eg men's voices in female toilets and vice versa, toilet doors closing, wallets moving etc.
I missed my parents but it's ok, my dad comes at night and my mum meets me in nus where she works.
The worst thing remains--I didn't get to shit because it's unglam.

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Speech Day was a lot of drama...
First I met Yanhui outside the bus stop. Sigh, had to endure ride to school with my obnoxious ex-classmates. I ignored them. Them--B***, *arine, Jie*ing, F****** clique.
Then we went to the hall. Walau, I discovered that Ben***** was supposed to sit with me. Luckily he ran away after discovering that too. Then I won't have to be the one who ran away (cause I want to go on stage).
I mostly talked with Pearlyn and June. The NY shirt from zexin was BIG, but who cares very good already lor, to finally get a white shirt.
Stoned from 2.30-6.30 before my turn. My feet hurt like mad, I hate heels!
The prize was a measly $40 voucher. Why the hell did those who only got A1 in English and NORMAL CHINESE get $150 cash?? And Chen Yun got them some more. She totally ignored me.
The catering sucks. Not nice and too little. Many retards just came to catch up on their friends. They're depriving the prize-recipients of a chance to eat!!
I hanged out with Shalyn after that. Could feel a little smug after seeing *lvin, L***, Yee*ing, *i*i, M*rri*n in NJC and ACJC.
I'M NOT PROUD OK, IN FACT I THINK I'M STUPID, BUT THE POINT IS AFTER SO MUCH HARD WORK YOU FINALLY GET BETTER THAN THOSE WHO GET COMPLACENT THINKING THEY ARE BETTER THAN YOU. YOU CAN RUB IT IN NOW.

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Some lame person decided to write about who she missed--so I shall write about who I don't miss. Right. Let's start with my class, 401.
1. Wanying, Jieling, Pingyin, Adora, Biqi, Arthur, Alvin, YuHao--I have no feelings towards you. Bad as it may sound, I don't care whether you're dead or alive, simply because you don't too.
2. Chen*ing, *anzhe, V******--you fake backstabbing hypocrite, I hope you will die asap.
3. Yeuyann, Kathryn, Jiayi, Shimin, Xinyi, Sokhian, Shermaine, Huimin, Siewying, Zouyou, Jason, Jianjie--you're one of my few friends. Can't say I miss you, or will remember you, but you've always given me a pleasant sort of feeling. Thanks for talking to me (as though a normal human should thank someone for doing something so basic, lol).
4. Jinghui, Regina, Merrien, Jiamin, Yeeting, Felicia, Vanessa, Chuan An--you're those kind of popular girls that I don't really talk to.
5. *arine, *ing*ing, N*******, L***--I really hate you. You're disgusting, mean, and arrogant. Purposely ask me my shirt size to humiliate me, huh?
6. Ben*****--a category of his own. He's irritating.

Alright, now that's done... to my sec 201 classmates.
1. Charmaine, Liling--another bimbo kind that I don't like but also don't hate.
2. Chen Yun, Guowei, Fongting--former friend turned... nothing?
3. Edelyn, Yulin, Yanjun, Alvin Lai, Mingyeow, James--no comments.
4. Limyun, Yanhui, Shalyn, Zixin, Cheeliang, Yongming--I'm glad we still stayed in touch. We used to belong to the same clique (:
5. Shin*i, *ei*ing, K******, Jia*in--very hypocrite popular girl.
6. A*a*, *oonchang, M*****, Weish*n--a f*cking retard who always tries to bully me, but fails.

And now, if I can remember... my 6G classmates?
1. Rebekah--another bimbo hypocrite/love/results rival.
2. Felicia Lau, Janell, Rena, Jingyi, Thurka, Jedd, Keith, Jiamin, Junyi, Weirong, Joel, Songwei--my friend!!
3. Celeste, SueAnn, Cassandra Teo, Elizabeth, Cassandra Monique, Lakshmi, Daniel, Gabriel,--no comments
4. Fu*in, V******--hated that arrogant bitch.

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List of anime I've watched:
Shakugan no Shana
Buso Renkin
Fate/Stay Night
Claymore
Kimi Ni Todoke
Noir

List of manga I've read:
Liar Game
Claymore
Angel Densetsu
Detective Conan

List of manga I want to read:
Kindaichi
Cromartie High School
Ushio and Tora
MC Law
Doubt
Miria Nikki
Kurosagi
The Ring
Tokko
Magic Kaito
Ikigami

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First off, I hate NH. I don't even miss it, lol. Sure, for some people, they got fun memories of sports day, NDP, National Day, chalets, camps, prom etc. But not me. I got too many enemies/hated teachers to be happy there. I skipped Sports day, National day, chalets, camps, prom anyway to study. It's near my house and I always see NH people, and I will hide. Felt like a fugitive in my own house, man! Then, people don't like me because I'm fat. Sian, should have gone to girls' school then no stupid guys. People ignored me, I sat alone in class for 2 years. I skipped quite a lot of PE lessons because there is no point. Nobody will play with me anyway (badminton, captain's ball requires teams). Not like I hate exercising or whatever. No one to eat with during recess so I don't go out. No one to talk to at weekends anyway so I mug. So that one day I'd go HC and start anew, make BETTER friends and BE SMARTER than all those shit at NH. NH uniform is so ugly, it's white somemore. What's worse is the stupid VP said I could go Sky Programme (some talent programme in NH), but I got rejected by the teacher in charge. Like WTF?
Somemore, I just realised I'm biased towards Indian. (No!!!! My best friend in P3 was indian too, how come??) Thanks to NH. There's only chinese in NH, so I kind of forgot how to interact with indians already. Many people there are racist, call indians bangla, and smelly or whatever. But I got indian friend too, she's called Namitha. Sigh, I bet HC is the same, only Chinese people.
I just realised that my results have always been average -.-
Seriously, in all my years at NH (Nine levels of Hell), I've never been in top 10. And I've never gotten 80% average. And L1R5 is always 10.
Sure, I've came close. Like 11 in class. Best is about... 79%? Lol, just a common test lah.
Sec 1:
despite sec 1 seeming so easy like chicken feet now, I didn't study last time. Got only 70+%, and was 12 in class, then 14, lol. Deproving ): Liked: Hist, lit, EL, chem, geog, Home Ec, bio, japanese teachers. Hated: Chinese, PE, Physics teacher. Hist teacher (Ms Tan Yi Fang) was pretty, lol. She was nice as well, and a good teacher, that's why I got 90 for history last time. Lit teacher (Ms Kali) was my debate teacher-in-charge. Quite nice. EL teacher is Mrs Julia Chia, she is one of the BEST english teachers, but she went another school to be principal ): Sian, all the good teachers are taken. Geog teacher is Ms Wong. Strict but good at teaching. I should have taken geog, but I didn't because she said she is retiring. Liar lor, now she's still teaching. Chem teacher is Mr Nicholas Liu. He's not bad. Home Ec is Mdm Wong, she is like a grandmother to me (: She praised my cooking. Bio teacher is Ms Chng Peck Hoon. She is good, and is biased to me (treat me well). She always chose me to help her carry things, and gave me sweets. Japanese teacher is Ang Sensei, she also like me despite the fact I always talk in class, and gave me chocolates. Chinese teacher (Liu Ling Feng) just sucks. She's good at chinese but her lessons are so boring. She also always say I'm from China but will fail HMT.... The PE teacher is indian, old, and hairy. Phy teacher is Mdm Anna Surin, she can't even teach lor. I failed my phy lor, didn't even understand how to read Vernier calipers, lol.
Sec 2:
We call her a scanner because she justMy worst year. I didn't get geog, Lit, Hist at all. All my humans' subject. Plus, I slacked the whole year playing with Chenyun. I hated my teachers too. Liked: Chem, Home ec, bio, Physics, PE teachers. Hated: Math, Hist, lit, EL, geog, japanese, chinese teachers. Chem teacher is Ms Angela Chian. Like her name, she is pretty, nice, and caring. Although young, she can teach. Home ec, bio teachers are the same. Phy teacher is Mr Daniel Chao. He's nice, a good teacher and always shows us fun videos. PE teacher (forgot his name) was nice to me, like let me take 2.4 myself, then I cheat and got gold!! haha. Hated: Hist teacher (forgot her name too) was indian, hard to understand, and boring. She did treat me to pizza though, haha. EL teacher (Ms Poon) was vain, and a bitch. Didnt let me (Someone who got top in class for EL) go immersion trip to Australia... but let my friend (Who failed her COMMON TEST!) go? WTF, it's your fault I didn't get to travel, I will never forgive you. Geog teacher (Mdm Poon) was really boring. Can't teach at all. read from textbook. Japanese teacher (Chia Sensei) scolded me for talking, lol. Chinese teacher (Mr Lee) talked with a stutter. Like that how to be teacher, spit everywhere? Math Teacher (Jonathan Quek) was our form teacher, unfortunately. He's ego, can't teach, unreasonable (Threw my storybook because I'm reading it. Well he's not doing any teaching too what. I finished all the assignment then do what?). That's why my Math in sec 2 sucks.
I did poorly, got 69.4% average. Rank dropped to 16, then 15.
Sec 3:
I did better because I somehow got into a good class. What, you mean the teachers can sense my potential? lol. But it's sucky because I went from got friends to no friends. Like the hell in India. Liked: Chem, Bio, Jap, Chinese, SS, japanese teachers. Hated: EL, Math, Phy, Hist teachers. Chem teacher is Ms Samantha Wang Shiyun. She's young, skinny, fashionable. Although not very smart, but gets to the point. Bio teacher is Ms Loy Xue Qian Shirlene. She's young and pretty too. I like her because she scolds my enemies, haha. My enemies are bimbos, and she scolds them too. SS teacher is Mrs Sabar. She's very funny but always take leave. Jap teacher is Hagimoto sensei. She's a Japanese, and is like a nice grandmother. Chinese teacher is Mdm Leong Lye Pheng, she's like my grandmother too. EL teacher, Veronica Elias Edwards, is a short, fat, ugly, retarded, indian woman. She NEVER HANDS US BACK OUR HOMEWORK! She didn't even mark them. Even our commonwealth essays. She only marked exams because she had to. I bet she ate them. Math teacher Mrs Tan Hwee Theng is not bad, but she is not that smart either. But she criticises my handwriting. And I somehow never get sweets because my maths not good. Physics Teacher is Mr Southira Pandian. His notes are good, but he just hate me for some reason. I'm supposed to be physics rep (Because I like physics thanks to Mr Chao). So pandian just ignored me and made Liyanzhe the rep. He also always scold me in front of everyone, make me lose face. Hist teacher, Mrs Sim Eei Choo is just boring.
I did better in sec 3 than sec 4 leh. At least I got 11 and then 15 in class.
Sec 4
Hell. No friends. Sat at first with Benjamin (that gay, mugger, ego guy). He's ok to me, because like he never tease me like other guys, but still. Also only sit with me because no one else wants to sit with him. I hate sitting with guys because will have rumours like you like him. Liked: Bio, Jap, SS, teachers. Hated: chem, chinese, EL, Math, Phy, Hist teachers. Bio teacher is Mrs Adeline Ong. She's pretty, skinny and nice. Though she just repeats the textbook. Japanese teacher is Chua sensei. She's generally ok lah. Although strict, she did help me a lot with my compos, and praised me, haha. SS, EL, Math, Phy, Hist teachers remain the same. Chem teacher is Mrs Lim Ai Tee. She's really naggy and boring. I got Liu Ling Feng for chinese again.
I got 16, and then 12 in class. L1R5 for prelims is 10, haha.
But I know I won't get in o levels.
Now to thank my tutors:
Mr Lam--Biology teacher.
Your fees are cheap, you're a good teacher because you wrote the textbook. You gave us better notes than your tb so we would do better, haha. You're very funny too. But I don't like it when you tell stories, because waste our time $$.
Ms Yee Sze Jia--History/SS teacher.
Your fees are expensive, haha. Thank you for lending me notes and books, and for teaching me SS even though you're officially my History teacher. Although you don't answer any questions, you tried hard to make me think, lol. So in the end I finally scored A1 for CH, something I've never gotten before.
Mr Lau--AM teacher
Your fees are cheap (: You always know how to do EVERY question I asked you. Somehow when you explain, you make it sound so simple. You treat me to countless dinners, and gave me a TYS for free (Although I didn't do it, shhh). Please continue teaching me!!
I made lots of friends at tuition too. Like Kelly, Tiffany, Cassandra, Weiyue, Siqing, Weixuan (lol, maybe), Xinfang, Melissa, Gladys. Made friends in Jap class too: Merissa, Yilin, Samantha, Suching, Jingrui, Brenda, that korean girl beside me whom I don't know how to spell her name, Wesley, Cheemin.

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Yesterday, Felicia and me met at Ananas Cafe to eat breakfast. It was 11 am.
After that, we went back to my house to drop off her stuff.
Then we took bus to ION. Reached at 12.50. Walked to Shaw and decided to watch Daybreakers because we're late for Legion.
Was wearing my new cool chelsea boots. But goddamit, it hurts like hell! Pearlyn, you never told me wearing shoes was so much pain. Wanted to buy starbucks but saved my money instead ):
The movie was cool but BLOODY. Bodies exploding, golem like vampires, Being eaten alive... I didn't know that is an NC16 movie, it should be M18 lol.
After that, we went to pepperlunch, where only I ate. It was 3 pm.
Then we went searching for Provence Bakery (: Bought 5 melon pans, 1 for Yilin, 1 for Felicia, 3 for me (:
Then we walked to Takashimaya's Kinokuniya. I wanted to buy like ALL the manga, like Liar Game, Claymore, Shakugan no Shana, Buso Renkin, kimi ni todoke, Case Closed, Kindaichi, but only bought 1 Claymore manga in japanese (: Felicia saw a DBSK magazine and bought it! But she no money, so I lent her $18.70.
Halfway home to Raffles Place we realised she didn't get her poster. Although my feet hurt, Felicia and me exchanged shoes. I think it's because my toes are too thick, the shoes are flat. So squash my big toe ):
However, we were told the poster is only in Japan ):
Then we went to Boon Lay's Popular to buy a sketchbook (: Bought an A4 size one, only $4.90, so now I can draw claymore (: I also bought a storybook. I wanted to buy Ban Mian at Kopitiam but it was a f*cking $6!! I might as well buy my caramel frappucino!!
Felicia owed me $2 for sushi. Then, she found that her ezlink card no money, so I lent her $5.
We went home, showered, read the magazine, then played the Game Of Life, then washed and hung clothes. Slept at 2 am!
Then I was woken up at 7 am by Felicia talking on the phone. She got into NP.
I was wondering how come I never receive any SMS. Finally, at 7.50 am, I WAS POSTED TO HWA CHONG!! WOOHOO! But now I got more worries. What to bring, wear, how to go, to bring parents or not, did I go in by CLEP?
Felicia finally woke up at 9am. We played some more Game Of Life.
Then we went for lunch. I lent her $6.60 for lamb chop. Wow, she owed me $32.30
Then we went back to my house where she taught me Speed and Poker card games. Haha. Sadly, she had to leave at 1.30 ):
All in all, I had a great time! Thanks Felicia!

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Today started out well... my father promised me a buffet.
Then suddenly he got a call: his mother, AKA my paternal grandmother is dead.
He's like, OMG, crying!! Although I'm not, because I don't like her. OK, scratch that, I hated her. Why? Because she's got black fingernails & can't cook nice food, and always diss my maternal grandmother, whom I LOVE!! Also she likes money, always forces my mother to give her. She said bad things about my maternal grandmother. I scold her, she complains to my dad, and I got beaten.
It's her own fault, who ask her so old take train alone, then die in her sleep no one knows? Plus she's very stingy, got diabetes also don't want to see doctor. I'm glad she died, but angry that WHY NOW? Why not later, not earlier?
Then I'm stuck at home babysitting my 3 yr old sister. I'm hungry ):
Is that even legal?
Finally told yilin my scores. Sigh, WHAT IF I DIDN'T GO INTO HWACHONG??
I'LL TOTALLY KILL MYSELF!!
My parents are going china for 1 week, leaving yours truly by her lonesome self.
o.O, I can't believe I just said that.
Luckily, felicia will be coming over for sleepover. We'll play the game of life, UNO, poker, sing marathon FIR songs, until daybreak!
Right now, me and my sis are devouring cheese cubes.
Debated with myself whether to tell chenyun or not, but likely she'll just ignore me. Oh well.

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For all of you out there... you know how much I hate shopping right?
Well, my dad dragged me out at night to go IMM to shop. Reason being he thinks entering JC is like a big deal, like I'm now grown up and mature and needs some nice clothes.
What's wrong with TShirt and jeans?
First, my mum bought 2 bermudas... black & green. I'm not so sure about green, but since I got grey already, it's the only colours left.
Then went to hang ten. 3 for $20. Yeah, i'm a cheapskate, but I think spending $$ on clothes is wasted when I could be saving them for building my non-profit organization empire, muahaha.
I must be the only female who hates shopping. I hate walking around, looking at clothes. I was never interested in fashion. My feet aches.
I should be born a man.
Then bra shopping! Seriously, I was SO EMBARRASSED. My mum pulled me to Triumph.
So the only bras I would ever wear is Sports bra, lol.
So it's 4 for $139. So ex!
While my mom complains, I reminds her that she's the one who wants to drag me to shop.
The worst thing is there's this skinny girl there who doesn't even need a bra!! She's like 70A or something.
The fat salesperson said B won't suit me. Well, I could still struggle into a B! I'm 80B ok! Not C!!
When I grow up I'm gonna go for breast reduction, until I don't need to wear a bra, just a singlet. Like 70A.
The only highlight is I bought a cool pair of boots! They're black, made of leather, and looks cool. Although it feels hard (i've never worn anything except school shoes and slippers before), it looks really cool. Like fighter girl cool. $29, not bad right? And it's NOT high-heeled.
The saleslady is really pretty I'd rate her 8. All of them are wearing long grey shirts+black tights. Lol, I would NEVER wear tights. NEVER. Even if I die. I would seriously PUKE at my reflections. Here's my ratings:
10. Goddess. So far, nobody I've seen.
9. Beautiful. Ayumi Hamasaki, Aya Ueto fits the bill.
8. Pretty. Lots of people, like Samantha.
7. Cute. BoA, Pearlyn etc.
6. OK in some positions. Like Jingrui, felica.
5. Average.
4. Plain.
3. Weird.
2. Ugly.
1. FREAK!! That's me if you're wondering.

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I don't get why people use (: instead of :), but i guess it's because they don't like the huge smiley symbol. So that's why i'm using this, haha.
Anyway, felicia came to my house today.
We went NTUC to buy ingredients for sushi (:
(putting (: after every sentence is annoying!!)
We only bought a bottle of vinegar ($5), 10 rolls of seaweed ($6), tuna ($2), and rice ($10).
So ex right!
Then we made the stuffings. I made the eggs, felicia was in charge of chopping the hotdog and crabmeat.
Then we rolled it.
Then Felicia helped me clean up. She is so nice!
In between the 2 hrs spent, we played UNO. Though I have never played it before in my life, i won 4/10 rounds. Cool right! Though I had to take 14 cards, haha.
Then the Game Of Life. It was really cool. My best was $1165, 000, haha.
First we chose a career, right. I wanted doctor because i liked to be one in real life.
Supposed to draw salary card. And you know, the first card was out of my colours, red and yellow.
And the second was the highest, $100000!
Then Felicia got $30,000 as salary.
She wanted mine, so she kept hoping for trade salary cards.
She got it!!
But don't know why, when I got her lower salary, I happened to meet taxes due. So I paid a measly $10,000.
Then I got the trade cards box again! So I got back my salary, just in time for payday.
And this happened twice! Coincidence?
Felicia was so sad that she always paid taxes when she got my salary, and no payday ):
Then we watched Temptation of Wife, and ate 5 sushi rolls between us! Haha I feel so full.
I hope to write my chinese novel together with yanhui (:
メリサさん、いつ時間がありますか？
君と会いたい！
君がいなくて寂しいね
今週の木曜日？来週の月曜日？
君は私のブログを読んでうれしいです。

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Met Merissa. She was dressed in a pink OP shirt and flowery bermudas.
I was in blue/white jacket, black shirt and jeans.
Last time I was in bell bottoms, now it's skinny jeans.
LOL, merissa say she didn't recognise me because I look skinny :)
We laughed A LOT. Somehow when I'm with her I feel like can laugh all I want. Although I cried first. About my results. Merissa that genius, got 6 pt leh! But she going VJC.
Good, one less competitor :)
We laugh at EVERYTHING. Things, people, whatever. I seem to be drunk with laughter.
Me: ey, i call you, someone who sound like you say you're not in leh! Your sister is it?
Her: Yeah!
Me: I said, "But you sound like Merissa!"
We laughed for 5 minutes.
Her: yeah, last time her friend call, also don't believe i'm not my sister. She's like "Don't bluff lah".
It seems not funny now, but it is really funny at that time.
Went to watch Cirque Du Freak. She thinks it's great, I am disappointed because it's SO different from the book. rebecca is a calafare and UGLY.
We like to randomly rate girls, lol.
Bought lots of bread for our family, until like grocery shopping :)
I like my melon pan, but only in criss cross design.
Bought mini bread, 5 for $2.70!
Then had to go home.
Talked with Felicia for like 1 hr straight. I think I'm a big talker.

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I was on the bus to ION when I decided to call Mr Lau-tuition teacher.
He at once passed the phone to his daughter, Yilin. My frenemy in jap class.
Horrified, I just hanged up.
Then I called him again. Unluckily, still it was Yilin who picked up the phone. I spoke shortly that i want to talk to her father.
Quizzed him about yilin's results but that !!!! handed the phone to yilin AGAIN.
she complained we never reply her sms.
Excuse us, her insufferable attitude puts us off.
I just said sarcastically i never receive any. Turns out no one replied her.
I asked her where she's going.
She said HCJC. Cause we're all gonna be there.
Hello? Last time you kept on saying you wanna go AJC because it's near your house. I tried persuading you every day since december holidays to go RJC with me you don't want. Then suddenly your results good you changed your mind. And since when did you care about where the rest of us are going?
I asked her results for every subject. She only told me both maths got A1.
I said I got F9. That bitch didn't believe me.
Then I said C6. Then B3.
She suan me by saying I always better than her, surely A1.
I asked her how many A1s she got. 8? I asked.
She said she not china scholar. Then suan me, say i from china surely get 8 right?
F*ck you lah, i told her how many times I'm already a singaporean for years. I don't look/sound/act like a china person. She always discriminate against me. I felt like crying.
She asked me why i sound so weird.
I said I got cough.
She ask me where I am now. I said meeting Merissa.
She complained we never ask her. Hello? We've been asking you since NOVEMBER 13! Alone, we had gone out 4 times. You kept on giving us excuses like JLPT, saying merissa also taking when SHE DID NOT, period (yeah, like only you have, we girls don't have), deviantart competition, packing. F*ck you, now you want i also don't want to go out with you.
Do you believe what she said? Now that i got a cough she doesn't want go out with me, for fear of contagion. WTH.
I hanged up on her, saying I'm at ION already.
Lol, all the lies made everyone on the bus look at me weirdly.

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Still feeling REALLY mad.
Before reviewing more JCs, I'm plagued with doubts.
I think I am the top among 3 pters. So sure?
If you're 3 pter, at least 6 subject A1 (including normal chinese)
Assuming everyone takes 9 subjects, what about the 3 not A1?
HMT: A2-C6
A science-Phy/Chem/Bio-A2
English: A1-A2
Any Math-A2
Comb Humans-A1
Since I got A2 for everything else, I'm pretty much on top.
BUT... there's people who get A1 for English but A2 for maths, maybe?
Then I'm below them.
Because they, like me, just happen to get 7 A1s too.
Can't go HCJC...
I want to go there
Been dreaming of going there ever since PSLE.
Which in case you're wondering, is 256+2.
Far short of the 264 needed, to safely go there.
But there's one way.
If I take Chinese Elective.
I know, I'm depriving someone of their love for CLEP, lol.
But face it, how many people there are like that?
Most of them, like me, just wants 2 more bonus point to go HCJC.
But anyway, I heard they got B3 for HMT, which means I'll definitely be better than them.
And it's not like I'll surely fail CLEP, lol.
Except now I can't take a subject in H2.
From:
H1: PW
H2: Chem, Physics, Maths, Japanese, KI
To:
H1: PW, GP, General studies in chinese, Maths
H2: Chem, Physics, Japanese, Chinese language and literature.
I checked, it is possible to offer 12 units.
Requirements to become a doctor is H2 As in Chem and Phy/Bio.
Sorry, maths, though you're easy, I have to drop you.
Because I love japanese far more than that.
4 years I spent studying Japanese, I can't just stop.
Otherwise I might as well not take it in the first place, who knows, with the extra time saved not travelling to bishan from clementi, wasting 3 hours of my life every week, I could get the A1 needed for english?

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I'm really sad that my grandparents have to leave Singapore for China.
All that Xie Tai Tai's fault. Curse her.
Her sissy son, with fat body, pimply pig face, brought like 40 kg worth of luggage.
Wtf, he a girl arh?
Bring 4 jeans, 10 winter coats, 3 scarves, 4 pairs of shoes, first aid kit, umbrella... What, he think Shanghai doesn't sell basic necessities meh?
Very sad that my parents don't like my grandparents.
My dad bought 4 packets of kinder bueno. Cost $52.50.

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Firstly, I called Merissa and she uttered 6 before hanging up.
Shocked, I called Yi Lin. She got 6 too, but I found that out from her mom.
Then I called Jingrui. She got 7 too. She sounded quite sad that she got 7. I asked if she got 8 she seemed angry I would think so. I'm sad that she didn't do worse than me, cause I always thought I'm better than her, lol.
She complained that Merissa got 6.
I said I thought Merissa always say her results suck.
Jingrui said Merissa was bluffing.
Suching smsed me that she got 7 too. Trying to appeal to RJC by using her brothers' connections and CCA and jap.
Later Yi Lin smsed everyone full of happiness. In a patronising manner, sent mass sms to everyone asking about their results without saying hers. Merissa and me chose not to reply her. Why ask everyone when you got worse?
Jing rui wants to go HCJC, Suching RJC.
Thankfully, Merissa said she wants to go VJC, don't compete with me. Lol.
Yi Lin says she will go AJC but I bet she won't really put that as first choice.
Felt really angry. Merissa and I crapped about how Suching stood Merissa up. Meeting Merissa at Thursday at ION :) Thanks Merissa, you're a really good friend.
Pearlyn told me she got 8. I was pleasanly surprised. Chen Yun refused to tell me hers. Felicia got 9. Surprisingly, Joel was quite nice, told me lots of info. Thanks, now I don't have to dig it from others when I lost their contact nos. He got 9 too. FMSS people all wants to go to ACJC.
No way I'm going there to see them. No way I'm going NJC either cause many NHHS people go there.

You know what? Rebekah purposely talked to me after not talking to me for 4 years. She just wants to know how I did.
I remembered the humiliation of PSLE when she got 262+2 and I only got 256+2.
I said it's OK only lah.
She said "oh". She is satisfied.
Then I said I got L1R5=7, better than expected. She's shocked.
Then she grilled me on where I want to go and what subjects I wanna take.
I kept it vague and said maybe ACJC.
I asked her if she still studies jap. Luckily, she quitted at sec 3.
Then I asked her if her HMT got A1. Again, like me, she got A2.
See how the mighty have fallen. One day I'll go there and do better than you, you just wait and see.

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Hey, let me introduce myself. New year, new intro, huh?
I'm born in China, but I've been living in Singapore since I was 5. I'm 16 now, so it's been more than a decade here.
I know how to speak English perfectly well, in fact I'm top in my class.
I've been learning Japanese for 4 years now, I think I'm OK. Like I can understand about 60% animne speech and JPop lyrics.
My Chinese is not that great though, but I'm reading through the dictionary for the 3rd time now.
I have this thing about dictionaries, read the English one when I was 12, but gave up at the end of A alphabet :(
Now I'm reading through the Japanese one. Though I think that dictionary is not very accurate, I prefer online versions.
I like to read. Darren Shan, Eragon, James A Owen, Anthony Horowitz etc fantasy/adventure books are my favourites. Can't think of any others right now, but I read 4 books a week.
For the past 2 months I've been studying for my JC this year. I finished Maths, Physics, Chemistry, Economics, in that order.
Only managed to go out to watch movie, draw, or write fanfiction.
I hate sports lol, and I'm quite the introvert.
Not much friends, not rich either, and I don't watch TV. I even watch Supernatural online.
I hate boys, lol, cause they're immature.
I'm a Christian, but I don't go to church. Because I'd rather stay at home, I don't like crowds.
I love music, but only some kinds. Like the shamisen, flute, electric guitar etc. But I'm forced to learn piano. Anyway, I'm lazy and don't practice anyway. So even though after 6 years, I just passed grade 7. I'm trying to learn grade 8 by myself now.
I hate to work. After all, i will work eventually, why hurry? And working as a cashier or something isn't glamorous. It pays peanuts. I'd rather study hard now and be a doctor. I don't need the money now anyway, I don't shop or go out.
My aspirations is to set up my own non-profit organization for abused children and endangered forests and animals. My targets are the poor people in poor countries, not poor people in rich countries. I don't want to get married or have children because I hate children. Well, not all, I pity those abused children because I'm one of them myself. My parents always scold that I'm fat, ugly, or stupid. But whatever, I'll get my revenge when I earned more money. My sister is 3, while I'm 16. She's always annoying me by taking my things or spoiling them, beating me then saying I was the one who beat her. She cries all day and urinates on me. I'm stuck with taking care of her, even though I never wanted a siser.
As I was saying, I like JPop. Because it's much more nice-listening than shallow English Pop or CPop. And because I know Japanese anyway.
How a singer looks is of no matter. I'm just reviewing the music. Even if someone is popular doesn't mean I'll rate highly. Like Ayumi, BoA, Crystal Kay, Namie Amuro, Beni etc. In fact I don't even like some of them. I'll rate according to lyrics, music, melody, tone, expressions. Although I'm no expert, I feel I know at least some music theory to evaluate those singers.
Wow, so much words. I'll post later.

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man, i finally figured out how to change my blogskin. This looks not bad, but a bit too girly.
Tried to change the 'beauty' words, but don't know how to. The part about stars are also... weird. Tried to add a tagboard but can't find any online. Sigh~, i suck at computers.

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