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profile:
Name: Serafiel
DOB: 18/09/1993
School: Qifa Primary School, Fairfield Methodist Primary School, Nan Hua High School, Hwa Chong Junior College, National University of Singapore
CCA: Netball, Innovation Club, Christian Fellowship, GuZheng Ensemble, Media and Debate Club, Library Club, Health and Fitness Club, Astronomy Club
Class: 1F, 2C, 3F, 4D, 5G, 6G, 101, 201, 301, 401, 10S67
wishlist:
Go to Hwa Chong/RJC
Become a doctor at Harvard/NUS
Set up a non-profit organization to help abused children, endangered animals and the rainforest.
Publish my own novel/direct a movie/make a CD
Contact:
thelastaurora@yahoo.com
★ 100 Books--13
Date: Thursday, May 15, 2014 | Time: 5/15/2014 06:57:00 PM
“1984″ by George Orwell. I have the book but only read 1 page
One Thousand and One Nights Anon I love it!
Midnight’s Children by Salman Rushdie Watched the movie just last month
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“Dune” by Frank Herbert OMG This freaking THICKASS book, I read the most boring, Star Wars wannabe book ever.
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“The Lord of the Rings” by J.R.R. Tolkien Hell no, Tolkien spent 1 page describing how Legolas walks. I hope to read the Hobbit one day though.
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(my last hopes. )
★ Module Review Year 2 Sem 2
Date: Tuesday, May 13, 2014 | Time: 5/13/2014 08:40:00 PM
Although I keep on telling people NOT to study Business at NUS, if you have to like you're forced by your parents/grades, then my review will serve as a guideline.
I took 5 business modules because of shitty preallocation of modules.
BSP2001: MAP OVERSEAS
Basically I only had fun during the tutorial, fantasizing about hunting my tutor who is a vampire "Supernatural style (c'mon the signs were there, pale, never go out in the sun, "ageless", good at economics) while my classmates drooled over him. The lecture was horrible because Prof Gao, the ex-girlfriend of the tutor, had horrible English after studying at UBC (university of a billion chinese). I can't understand a single shit.
FIN3101: Take if you want
Lecture was fast, tutorial was hard, but teacher was really good. Dr TAN. I learnt a lot about corporate finance, it was useful. The project was bad because of my teammates, not so much the format.
FIN3103: Never take
This was a elective. I thought it was going to be formatted into important laws/regulations to know, certain histories, but NO. Thanks to my WEIRDLY-NAMED PROF, it was more like she uploading 100 slides, then never using the slides or talk to us. She will scrawl in FADED MARKER inks all over our 8 whiteboards then erase them quickly. The project had no guidelines and she would check her nails during your presentation so it doesn't matter. Exams were hard because she will test you trivia. The prof herself is racist and LOVES CAUCASIANS. Like class debates, it's more like a class conversation between the prof and the caucasians.
MNO2007: MAP OVERSEAS
I had the "1-in-51" chance of actually getting in the same group as my friend because my tutor forced us to draw poker cards. The module just makes no sense. It requires you to write ESSAYS about your feelings every week for the lesson, then you must TALK CRAP and ACT LIKE YOU KNOW THE NEWS during class. The quiz was horrible. Whatever you learnt during class will not come up for the quiz. The quiz was some shit they found lying somewhere on the internet. I consistently scored 20 marks below average. The project was really TIME-CONSUMING and useless. You just have to know "video-editing skills" and "wit like a TV show script-writer" because I'm sure that's what university graduates are supposed to know. Oh, and you have to interview an IMPORTANT MANAGER for 1 hour and it doesn't matter what you ask, it only matters to hit the 1-hour mark. Needless to say I had to send expensive gifts to convince STRANGERS why they should let me interview them.
MNO2009: You won't die if you take
An ordinary module where you go for lectures and pay attention. Quizzes were pretty much what you learnt in lecture. Projects were useless again. But normalcy is something to be craved after all the other modules in BBA.
(my last hopes. )
★ Future Plans as of now (stream of consciousness style)
Date: Monday, May 12, 2014 | Time: 5/12/2014 02:01:00 AM
Random thoughts: I am good at Riddles in quizup, I want to go see the Dinosaur exhibition...
Oh and I learnt a few words in Quenya Elvish today (LOTR).
apsa=meat
masta=bread
sava=juice
curun=prince
I think lar... Just read on the bus, might forget already.
Holiday plans:
Participate in competitions
Practise piano
Finish reading up 4 finance textbooks
1 year plans:
Get an honours degree.
Take GRE, TOEFL
Apply to graduate programs
Teach myself elvish/Spanish
Stories to write:
My "reborn" series of ancient Qing dynasty concubines.
Anyway, I am turning 21 and yet all my mind is thinking of is SCHOOL, JOB, STUDENT LOAN. I can never relax.
I hate it when people keep on asking me like why don't I have a boyfriend. They blind ah? It's so obvious that since I am not "goodlooking" nor "kind", I will never get one.
(my last hopes. )
★ Talking about Guys
Date: Thursday, May 8, 2014 | Time: 5/08/2014 08:01:00 PM
Yes, that's right, this post will be talking about boys that I met, not that I am boy crazy or anything. I will not get married or have a boyfriend.
Pri 2: There was this guy called Benjamin, he used to be in Qifa then he transferred to Henry Park in P3. I remembered his glasses and rabbit teeth haha, but he's REALLY nice and my only friend who doesn't mind that I came from China. We were really good friends and I wish I can meet him again someday.
Pri 3: OK, I sat beside this prefect who was really cute!! But now not anymore lol (FB stalked). Wong YS might even have reciprocated my "crush" had I not transferred school. I remembered he gave me a pink diary with a lock.
Pri 4: I have this bad habit of getting crushes on my partner. Yang DH was fat and nerdy and we had a lot of fun talking about the pretty girls in class. I think he jokingly asked me to be his gf by giving me $2 but I returned him at the end of the day after thinking about it.
Pri 5/6: Again, Joel Y was my partner and a prefect. We had a rocky "relationship" from the start. I remembered making him angry many times (come to think of it, I should be a guy! Because guys tease girls they like) and once asking him if his father will be mad (angry) but he thought it's mad (crazy). And yes, for the first time in my life I confessed to him. I even had a rival R Tan. After O Levels, I sort of contacted him for a bit, and I met R Tan in JC, who seemed jealous. I'm like hmm? You can have him lol I don't even remember him anymore.
Sec 1: The guy in front of me, A Lim, looked like Harry Potter so I chatted with him.
Sec 2: I liked my chairperson A Ho because he once "gentlemanly" passed his packet drink to me when the class lacked one, lol he was an Ah Beng and gangster.
Sec 4: I was forced to sit beside Benjamin C, another outcast because I'm one too. Anyway, he's gay, stingy and competitive. After a while you just learn to ignore him, I guess he's OK since I'm also competitive. He did became more popular after buying people sweets though.
J1: I only have 3 close guy friends, KE, MY and KS. Actually, I knew MY since we're from same secondary school but I don't really talk to him. He's serious. KS is a cross between Lee Seung Gi and Justin Bieber. I became his friend because I think he'd be useful? Like I often ask him to help me print stuff and I went to his house a couple of time. We also gossiped about pretty girls and I set him up on dates. So he's like a gay best friend, really. Then I guess I became very nerd and jealous of his results HAHA so I spent all my time studying. I was jealous because he doesn't study and he's from neighbourhood school but he suddenly scored so well. He got a girlfriend whom I think DON'T LIKE ME so I just hang out with my girl friends. KE was a DAMN NICE guy but he's shy and low self-esteem. I also tried to set him up :P I remember once I jokingly said it's my birthday and asked him where's my present? And he really bought one. So he's a nice guy to be friends with.
Holiday: Umm, nothing much except Wu SJ, I posted some emo crap on FB and he kept on messaging me to call him while he's in army. I'm in the CCA he's in charge of in JC, we even went to Japan school trip together but he was always a bit weird. And I teased him about Yilin. Later on he was "angry" that I didn't go to his Church for some event (honestly it's weird going to a new church ok! Not about him) and we didn't talk ever again. Frankly, I was jealous that he managed to get in USP and I didn't.
Uni 1: The weird guy in my previous post. I think he's weird, he's really sensitive and he thinks I hate him (I don't even think about him much) BUT after I found out that he's the intern with the closest last day of work to me and I needed someone to split the costs of presents for everyone I DID 180 DEGREE TURN and praised him like mad and be a REALLY GOOD FRIEND like help him and stuff. I even thoughtfully write a poem for him because he says he like this poem and I'm like ok. So the poem is about a widow grieving, but he shouldn't think I am playing the role of a widow right? Like cursing himself? Long story short, he think I like him for very long, and suddenly stopped all contact with me. WTF I never even do anything that shows I like him.
Things he did: Ask me how goodlooking he is, what's my type, call me at night
Things I did: Said he's above average, wrote a poem, helped him with work, casually ask him to watch a horror movie together and EXPLICITLY EMPHASIZING it's because no one else want to watch.
If anyone is to misconstrue a crush, should be I think he like me right? But I where got so ego? Please lah,
Uni 2: This weird guy in my Jap class. I first noticed his FB account because he comment on EVERY NUS CONFESSIONS and FB messaged him for my SPH internship article. Anyway, I realized in the middle of the sem that he's my classmate. I mostly asked him about Jap questions (and flattering), but he will ask weird questions like "what do I like? Do I want to keep in touch with him?" Again, I felt it's weird. Suddenly, he stopped replying my very urgent Jap questions after I post on FB that I'm going to confess on VDay (confess meaning telling my friend a secret, just a controversial word). So, I don't care/want if he likes me, I'm just like PFFFT fine be angry/distant then, I just find someone else to study Jap with.
Daniel T is VERY GOODLOOKING, rich, smart, tall, nice... Perfect. I just felt happy he's in my group, I don't even have a crush on him because this type of people are too unrealistic. Sometimes I get irritated when he does too much, like I will be short on whatsapp, but he's forever "friendly" so he might be fake.
To conclude:
Either I met ASSHOLES who think I like them
Or I have crush on guys for no reason
Or I became very good friends but only for a short time.
Sigh. I will never talk to guys again!! Misunderstandings.
(my last hopes. )
★ Back in 2014
Date: Wednesday, May 7, 2014 | Time: 5/07/2014 12:20:00 AM
Last seen 2 years ago, I was supposed to be a doctor, or a lawyer, or even just anybody with a scholarship at least.
But what really happened was. Firstly, I screwed up my A Levels, mostly, Chemistry. If I had just gotten A in Chemistry, then well I might still stand a chance. I'm going to point the finger at my Chemistry teacher, Mrs Tham. I don't think it's her teaching that caused it, but rather I think she hated me. Well, I had reason to believe so because she always reluctant to see me for consultation and she's close to all her students except me. Well, not like all the teachers must love me, but the last straw was when I wanted to consult other Chemistry teachers and she forbade me. I'm like, selfish much? It's fine if you don't want to teach me, you don't let others teach me? I guess she felt like losing face or whatever. I did have tuition for Math, Physics and Chemistry, but I do think my Chemistry tutor was not very "accreditated" and it was too late to look for others.
Moving on, I had a brain-dead moment and I chose the school, not the course. I wanted Accountancy but the school fees were $8000 more expensive, so I chose the "better school" to boost up my chances of doing "further studies" in medicine (ok, I want to be a doctor because it's a useful skill, applicable to everyone like animals even, and you feel good. It's like one of those dream careers, nobody ever dreamt of being a HR manager right?)
BUT, I really hate my college. It was filled with people who are shallow and they like to party. And we were forced to take basic courses and I am super bad at them (class participation). It's not like I can't find things to say, it's because "I WASN'T FREAKING CALLED ON". Yes, if you ever take ES2002, know that if you got CHITRA SABAPATHY, she is a racist (I'm the only China person) and she bear a grudge ever since I missed her class because my only pair of spectacles broke and I need to fix it. Of course, I tried to kick up a fuss but nothing ever happened to her. Meanwhile, I got my first C+.
I also tried for CCAs but surprise they didn't accept me because I'M FREAKING OLD since I'm not a freshman anymore. Right.
Marketing, HR, Economics, gosh I did badly. The previous 2 were due to biases while the last 1 is because I'm just naturally bad at Economics because I didn't take it in A Levels.
And then, I made a few friends and I teased them about their crushes like last time :P
Then I went for my SPH internship. Looking bad, the pay was pretty good and it was quite fun chatting with the other interns, it's not even that far from my house BUT it's really competitive. I made many friends and enemies, namely this petty guy, who thinks that just because he is above average (so is the other 49% of the population) that if I ask him to watch a movie=I like him. WTF is wrong with you? Dude I don't even know you! If I talk to you or have lunch with you, ever thought maybe it's because erm, I don't want to appear alone? Or I just feel bored? Maybe some activities are more fun in groups? Anyway, so due to his fault, I spent a huge sum of money buying presents for everyone I met in SPH because he just up and ran off without paying. I mean, where's your responsibility, man? So what if I (touch wood) do blindly like you? Not like I will molest you or something...... I might as well do that to more "goodlooking" guys since it's illegal. Anyways, I decided that guys are weird because they might think you like them and then screw up your plans.
My Year 2 sem 2, I had 5 projects.
The good: everyone took initiative, except maybe 1 (goodlooking) guy was too enthusiastic and I felt he was faking it.
The average: A couple of tension/inefficiency/awkwardness like your teammates hooking up/going out and leaving you alone, or couples who always stand for each other.
The bad: Perfectionist guy who thinks he's always right and force you to follow his example.
Vietnamese scholar who joined your group halfway, bad at english and conveniently "copy and paste" the report into our presentation. WTF then what's the point in presenting if it's the same?
My teachers:
The good: professional, efficient one who gave our cadbury chocolates (Prof Ruth Tan deserved to be named)
The average: tried to be interesting...
The bad: Prof Gao who couldn't speak English properly. And one biased towards Europeans.
I don't ever know if I'll reach my goal, but it's do or die.
(my last hopes. )
★ Stronger--Kelly Clarkson
Date: Friday, December 16, 2011 | Time: 12/16/2011 11:22:00 PM
1. Mr Know It All: Kelly sounds too panty in the verse. The chorus sounds like Nothin’ on You lol.My favourite song because this is exactly who my father thinks he is. He always controls me and orders me around. 4/5
2. Stronger: This starts off so lazy! Very harsh vocals. 1/5
3. Dark Side: Song starts off pretty enough with a musical box and ahs of Kelly. Very cool like Evanescence’s Everybody’s Fool. This is what Avril wishes she sounds like. 5/5
4. Honestly: Very boring song and Kelly’s voice is horribly raspy. 1/5
5. You Love Me: Very sexy but I hate the “Not good enough” part. 3/5
6. Einstein: Kelly lets out some “unsexy” yell. She goes Yeah Yeah like Rihanna. 2/5
7. Standing In Front of You: Her vocals sound kind of floaty, like ethereal. But not in a good way. 2/5
8. I forgive you: As catchy as a Taylor Swift song. 4/5
9. Hello: Oh Kelly, can you stop copying Evanescence’s song titles? First Haunted, then now Hello. This song is boring too. 2/5
10. The War is Over: Quite catchy though simplistic lyrics. 3/5
11. Let Me Down: Interesting lyrics. Very catchy too. 4/5
12. You Can’t Win: This sounds like what my father would scold me. But it sounds weird. 1/5
13. Breaking your own heart: A very slow boring song. Kelly can’t carry off slow ballads, unfortunately. Just like Taylor Swift, they both sound good on midtempo and fast-paced songs. 2/5
14. Don’t You Wanna Stay: A perfect ballad. 4/5
15. Alone: This song starts off like “I Believe You” for Johnny English Reborn, haha. Very rocky, 5/5
16. Don’t Be A Girl About it: The annoying pre-chorus of woah makes the chorus sound like “I Whip My Hair Back and forth. Urgh. 2/5
17. The Sun Will Rise: This song starts off like a traditional music soundtrack! Kelly’s better at bonus tracks, haha. Kelly sounded stronger than ever. 5/5
18. I couldn’t find the last one ): So sad.
Total: 49/17=2.88 A very good album, although the score indicates otherwise, simply because all the good songs are at the top and bottom of the list. Kelly sounds better than ever and the songs are all damn catchy.
Kelly is skinnier and prettier! And you know what? She doesn't need a guy to be successful.
Labels: music review
(my last hopes. )